Its springs and its all my kids fault !!

Spring is in the air, birds are flying, dogs are in heat, and the spring rain makes me want to roll up into the fetal postion and cry like a newborn baby. I will spend time whining in my bedroom, crying for soup and asking to watch cartoons. As I regress to be reborn I will be happy, moody and sad because the freaking rain hurts like hell! As the sky clouds up around our nice 70 degree day which was 6 inches of snow and below freezeing last week, I will try my best not to suck my thumb while crying as if I just got a spanking from the rain clouds.

It's time for me to make plans of things I know I will never do, with the best intentions of being part of the human race. I know very well I have no idea what mood I will wake up in each day or even what time of the day I will wake up! While I live the roulette style of life, I want to take it for a spin, and see which number (or what time of day) I might get my sorry ass out of bed that day to see If I can do one of those many things I planned "as soon as the weather gets better".

We have had one rough winter folks I now know why Canadians have such a great view on life. If every year I was up to my butt in snow and freezing weather I would smile and be happy go lucky for the warm months. As well I spent a month or so hiding in my room heavily medicated, only leaving to visit my therapist so I can complain to her about how my life sucked and was totally clueless as to how to fix myself. One of the things I learned is, I was paying a lady to tell me the same damn thing my wife was, which was get off your ass. I wonder, does going to see my therapist count as getting off my ass? Am I cheating on my wife with this lady telling her my secret desire to take over the world like I am pinky from Pinky and the Brain or is this my wife's new partner in crime she secretly emails in ploy to keep me from my own insanty? mmm I shall ponder this one later. By the way I still dont know how to fix myself either.

I now have a list of things I wish to do in this warmer climate and I dont know for sure if I really want to do this stuff or I am wishful thinking < ploting to take over the world is hobby only done at night > for my daily plans, take some walks, do some fishing, plant some flowers with the wife, and watch my boys do things on skate boards and bikes that scare the ever loving hell out of me which might explain all the gray hair I have now! and it IS my kids fault !!

The goal or plot of my wife and therapist is for me to rejoin humanity, get into life again. We shall see how well it goes with it's up and downs in all the glorious choas of my life. Wish all those about to enter the spring season well and please if you have therapist screw with their heads a little if for nothing else just to see them question their own sanity so they know how it feels !